@PandaaTales

2008-07-16T03:32:00.000-07:00

I'm very busy with schoolwork yaaa.
Hop over to livejournal to see more alright.

AND IN CASE.....
myanimosity.livejournal.com (:

2008-07-11T05:48:00.000-07:00

back to school today.it was awesome.my classmates are nice suddenly.:)
i've ALOT of homework to do.dammmmit.:S
I need to study hard,I will study hard,I must study hard,I will do my homework,I will read more books,I will pay attention in class,I will not play in class too much,I MUST GET GOOD RESULTS.

I found out that someone do care for me,but thr's something missing.You're nice,but don't be too nice.I'm seriously fine with them teasing about me because of you. :D

ive lost 2kg

2008-07-03T20:00:00.000-07:00

i'm finally going back to school next week.
it's not a good thing to stay in the hospital.and i can't believe that the whole class knw about it which is soooo.........my face is gone.

wo de tian ya.
when can i find someone i trust?

holiday ended.

2008-06-23T04:06:00.000-07:00

Hi i'm back!:)
Went to school today,it was....kinda good?Ive forgotten to bring the must have book on the first day of school - report book.So damn,errrr.It's Siva's bday and her Mom,brother,maid&friends came to celebrate her bday IN CLASS.&the bee in our clas is always freaking me out.Went back home after school.
I went out with Meiwei last Sat,we went shopping around town.Got myself a dress at Wisma.Went back early because Mom wants lunch from me.
I didn't mention alot of things,I went jogging,shopping&ktv with E.Ktv most.
We went shopping and she got nothing but i got a pair of shades.
Then went ktv 3-4 times during the holidays,jogging with her at Vista park bcuz Stadium was closed that evening.

Hopefully school life will be better this term,and hope some things will change.Also,I'm actually not really prepared but i hope i will be prepared asap to study hard and get grade 2 or 3 for my maths.Hehe.

IM STILL IN THE HOLIDAY MOOD,ARE YOU IN THE HOLIDAY MOOD TOO?
p/s:dont you think my blog song is nice?:D
GOOD DAY PEOPLE,BYE.
you,a sucker
&you,a blood sucker. :S

For the man I love the most..

2008-06-15T00:12:00.000-07:00

Happy Father's Day Papa! :B
You're the greatest dad ever! ily.

myanimosity.livejournal.com

Whats wrong?

2008-06-11T01:32:00.001-07:00

SHIEEEEEEEET.
Why must you always listen to others?
Why must it always be my fault?

WHATS WRONG?!Where's the old you?

Sentosa..

2008-06-10T22:17:00.000-07:00

I went Sentosa yesterday with Jacky,Steven& Xiaoping.
We had a very long walk and the sun is burning.Settled down and had fun in the water for hours.We had too much fun until Xiaoping and I forgotten to apply sunblock..And I was wearing a tanktop,so..I got sunburn very badly!Waited for 40mins+ before its our turn to bathe,went to play Skyride after that,it was their first time trying so..Jacky kept scaring us by shaking the whole thing.We did not play the Luge because there's alot of people waiting.Went back to Vivo aft that to have our dinner,went to the skypool and walk around,went to Candy Empire and got Nougats and chocolates.Trained back to Woodlands after that.

It was great yesterday. :D

I hate it when they talk about you.

Sentosa..

2008-06-10T00:02:00.000-07:00

I went Sentosa yesterday with Jacky,Steven& Xiaoping. We had a very long walk and the sun is burning.Settled down and had fun in the water for hours.We had too much fun until Xiaoping and I forgotten to apply sunblock..And I was wearing a tanktop,so..I got sunburn very badly!Waited for 40mins+ before its our turn to bathe,went to play Skyride after that,it was their first time trying so..Jacky kept scaring us by shaking the whole thing.We did not play the Luge because there's alot of people waiting.Went back to Vivo aft that to have our dinner,went to the skypool and walk around,went to Candy Empire and got Nougats and chocolates.Trained back to Woodlands after that. It was great yesterday. :D

I hate it when they talk about you.

pictures torn apart.

2008-06-04T09:19:00.000-07:00

Today was great,but I will blog about it next time.

Going out tomorrow with Xuewen&Xiaoping to make Huitian's bday card,and I still need to help Zian to get his skinnies.
I can't wait for Monday again!

There are many things left to remind me,of a love that I just can't leave behind me.

My dream came true!

2008-06-01T05:11:00.000-07:00

I dreamt of myself getting a limited edition hot pink digital camera last night.And guess what?

MY DREAM CAME TRUE!I got a pink camera today anddddd too bad it's not limited edition.Lol.

It's better than nothing though,my Dad told me he need one and brought me to Audio House and asked me to help me pick one.So the salesgirl told us we should get this camera..

It's not those canon camera but I really like it.Dad knows that I want pink and he didn't even ask me and he picked the pink one for me!:D

Kay enough of all this shit.I just can't wait for Wednesday.

I'm going to rottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

Imma lucky girl.

Dreams, dreams, dreams.

2008-05-31T03:26:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated Birthday Jaslyn(L)!
Hope all your wishes come true,love you![:

I had a good Wed and Thurs,I went to my cousin house on Wed.My cousins went to Genting,so my grandma and the two maids were at home only.I cooked dinner for everybody include my Mom,Dad&Aunt.Aunt&I went to her friend salon and I got my haircut,my fringe is short but it doesn't look like bangs and thattttts really good.Aunt &I are going to do manicure&pedicure next week.Science Centre&Ktv on Thurs,it was really good.We had alot of fun in the Science Centre.Ktv with E was great.

I wanna go swimming. o_o

f you.

2008-05-29T06:12:00.000-07:00

very very angry.

Sighhhhh. t(-_-t)

Let it be love that keeps you strong.

2008-05-25T04:46:00.000-07:00

Someone found my hp and pass it to Bukit gombak control station.I went to claim it ytsd and guess what?That someone who found my phone locked my whole phone with password!Suay anot you tell me.So I'm going to Samsung tomorrow..I bought a new pair of Converse shoes,thanks to my Dad.I don't have to pay a single cent.
NOW!I want to get a new desktop and DS Lite so badly!My brother wants a DS Lite too.
Ohya,I had a very very wonderful meal yesterday with my Mom&Aunt.We went Sakae!
I'm going to stay at home today and clean up my room and the house.So hardworking eh?

I want Nintendo DS Lite!! :(

26 is your lucky day,

2008-05-22T05:51:00.000-07:00

YA,didn't went to school yesterday..So,went to school today to get back our report books and my class position is 14.I failed Maths and Hc. :( I still did very badly,I've got like 54% only ? :S
Okay,enough of school stuff.It's holiday next week,so time to ENJOY!:D

I want to go out with Mom tomorrow .. :(

p/s:i think my blog song rocks.kodakumi's Kingdom!

A part of me died when you left me.

2008-05-20T06:36:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated Birthday Meiwei Darling. [:

I don't have much thing to blog about,went to school today and had a good chat with Xuewen.
School is never fun,had 2talks in the morning and we all wasted 1hour just like this.
I wanna go out and have fun and meet up with Jaslyn so badly,can't wait for our outing next week. (:

Yes,i'm being selfish.F U C K Y OU.
Actually I wrote something mean about the bastard..but nah.Forget it.

"We hold on to memoriesso tight because they are the only thing that don't change wheneverything else does."

With love,

2008-05-13T06:07:00.000-07:00

I went to East Coast today with Zibi 1,3&4..I tried to rollerblade but my left leg is very weird.
I've met 3 m*f* people today, 1st in the arcade.I paid the BLUR auntie 2$ and Jacky paid me 1$ because we shared the 2$.She took my 2$ and the 1$ Jacky gave me and she only gave me 2 coins.I went back and tell her and she kept denying she didn't take my money.Wtffff.
2nd in the train,some kids were STUPID enough to shout excuse me when there's nobody infront of them..One of the friends said that they're rude,so Esther&i said exactly.That little boy turned back and said no,you're wrong.Wthhhh.
3rd in the train too,this OLD auntie w/o manners hitted&pushed Elgene A LOT OF TIMES with her elbow and shout at him don't block the door(in chinese).Wtf is this mann?!So RUDE right?He's not blocking the WHOLE dooor what.I can't believe she hitted him so many times.

Oh I had fun today.And...GOSSIPS!
K,I blog because I want to complain......
I.HATE.NAPFA.I.HATE.STANDING.BROAD.JUMP. ))))):

p/s:i'm having hiccups now... :(

For the very special women in my life.....

2008-05-11T22:14:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOMMY!(L)
Yes,you're the most special women in my life.If i could,I wanna be your daughter next life.(:
you're the greatest mom,ever.
世上只有我的妈妈好.

So I had a not so good dinner with my cousins ytsd,we reached home like 12..40?:S
But I had fun with my cousins,they're so cute yesterday.
And I can't wait to go roller-blading with E next tues,she's gonna teach me how to!

p/s:ya,my cousins are cute only for yesterday.(:

What's wrong with you?

2008-05-08T06:09:00.000-07:00

Sore throat is killing me.And I missed my Maths p2,i'm seriously very very very very very sad.and I still can't get over it.but it's too late alrd.
Miniclip have been part of my life recently and you can laugh all you want because i don't give a shit at all.Staying at home is boring,but it's still better than going out...maybe?:S

也许是注定的~
Happy Birthday XiaoEn.

turning around

2008-05-03T04:53:00.000-07:00

Okay so..I had a great day with Banana(Esther) ytsd,why banana?Cus she's calling me Powlin:( and I can't think of something to call her back so...wait till I think of others first then.Haha.Oh and I've so much to complainnnnnnnn!:S
Something stupid happened to me when I'm in the train,I thought I've forgotten to take my spects out so we took train back frm Sembawang and I took cab home and found out that my specs is in my pencil case and I bought my pencil case out.(ANGRYYYY)SO FUCK RIGHT?:S Went over to cine to watch our movie,Hensel And Gretel.We sat for like freaking 2hours and my butt hurtttts tho the seats are comfy,plus my stomach keep asking me to feed it.I don't think the movie is very nice like what people say.We left and went to Esplanade's lib.Cooool I tell you,the brownie is soo nice.And the place is nice too.Dinner at Azabo Sabo.My Unagi bento sucks because there's bone even tho you can eat it,dessert is like ... :S

Okaaaay,I didn't study today.I feel like I need to draw,but I can't think of anything to draw..Nothing inspire me..
Ikea's Hotdog is the best.Suppose to buy the wallshelf today but still can't decide which one to get,but still.i've got some candles.

GSS faster come...

life is one big roller coaster.

2008-04-30T04:31:00.000-07:00

i've been travelling around Singapore's library,i've never been to Bishan,Jurong,Esplanade,Amk library and many more.So..Thanks to E,I'm able to visit Bishan&Jurong lib.This friday aft exams,we're going to Esplanade lib.so happy!
I so wanna watch movie,I see people still watching movies during their MYE period,envyyy....
So again,E&I will be watching movie this Friday at cine.So Bishan's library wasn't that bad.I think we spent 1hour in Yoshinoya.
Lit was really hard for me because I didn't read the book at all,maths was okay,wasted alot of marks and still hoping that i will pass...

Okay,Zi bi fanclub is open specially for Jacky & ME is the President of the club.(Very proud leyyyy!)
Lmao,fyi : I'm not outdated!!I'm just.....slow? D:

trying,still trying.

2008-04-29T03:38:00.000-07:00

i can't wait for tomorrow's maths paper.
i'm gonna have ichiban/sakae/hkcafe(either 1) with Esther on Friday again:D
I stayed back today in the art room with my form teacher.again,because i'm always not in school..I told her the reasons and i'm now trying not to be affected by it.I DON'T WANT TO BE ANTI-SOCIAL!

y'know,my heart just crash like a plane.and it's alrdy 3/4 dead..wtf.

how to relax and not think about it?!you tell me!you tell me!

Everyone makes mistake.

2008-04-24T06:16:00.000-07:00

I flunk my Paper 1 compo.It's very difficult.Letter writing&Paper 2 was alright(i hope so.)
My day was great.Sushi,salmon and pizza make me smile.

All my life needed was a sense of direction, a sense of some place to go.

2008-04-22T03:39:00.001-07:00

it's so difficult to fake a smile,and i'm fucking tired of it.
it's so difficult for me to voice out now,and i'm already sick of trying it.

great,i've lost everything within a minute.

Caught in a moment

2008-04-20T02:42:00.000-07:00

I really don't know whaaat i want.I'm so weird.
Anyw,A's birthday was great.We went to Kbox instead of Ice-skating because the rink is closing at 5.15.I hope A enjoyed.
Studied at Bk yesterday,nothing can go into my brain recently..I've forgotten all the maths formula my teacher used to teach me.Shit.
Ohya!My brother is back home and going back to camp later again.Wtfz.Babysitting is not a fun thing at all..Babysit my cousin just now,so tiring okay!

I fell in love with Kenji on 17/4.Ha ha!:D

I'll be back.Asap.

Can't break the habit

2008-04-16T02:19:00.000-07:00

School was great today,walked to school with ex-bbf in the morning.During chinese lesson.I'm surrounded by 4 pervert,hahaaaa.But they're really very funny. :P
Geo sucks!And I missed out 4 test ytsd,wth.I'm taking my Maths on friday,by right I should be taking my History test tomorrow..But it's A bday tomorrow.So... yap.

Happy birthday in advance my dearest sweetest Ashley Ho♥.I love you like crazy okay,and i'm sure you love me like crazy too.Ha ha.God bless you.

MUACKS PANDA.

taste the rainbow

2008-04-12T08:20:00.000-07:00

I'm actually very happy because I went to my class camp.Though i missed out Kayaking,but it's better than i miss everything out.Just did some stuff on the second day.
CRC,Tent pitching&photo viewing.Shouldn't talk much bout it.:D
Suppose to meet A but she can't make it,so meet up with Esther&Elgene.Sorryyyy,made you guys unable to eat dinner outside.
So I'm able to meet with my brother today cuz' Mom need to pass him some stuffs.As a sister,I shouldn't say this but,he really look very weird with his new hairstyle.(botak!)But he's my brother,so he look the best. :)
Should I get a watch?I feel like i need a watch suddenly.
AND I SO WANNA CUT MY HAIR.

heyyyy,i hate that guy!banggbang.

heartbreakers.

2008-04-09T05:03:00.000-07:00

boo,
i didn't went for the camp,sigh..that means i won't be in school to study also.
Going to the library tomorrow in the morning to study alone..hope i can wake up.
i guess i'am going to delete my friendster account,uhhhh.Did nothing at home today cept for watching Clannad.I don't know if i should regret for not going to the camp or...walau,cannot stop thinking of it ley.the Pink jacket from one of the online shop got my attention.Gonnna get itttt :D

Anyw,my brother is in his NS camp alrd.It's only the second day and i'm alrd missing him alot.A promise to help him train his Maple account and i totally screw up the whole programme thanks to the patch.Damn it.
Oh great,i had instant noodle for breakfast,cup noodle for lunch and again instant noodle for dinner.What a day..
If i can wake up on time and go to the library to study tomorrow,i'm gonna reward myself with..teriyaki chicken burger!Been craving for it since last week. :)

Maybe you haven't forgive me yet,but after knowing that I'm just lying to myself and I got to know the truth,I blame myself for being naive & I can't forgive you after knowing so much.
idk if you're reading not,but lets just say this way,if you love someone and never gonna tell, will that someone ever feel?

I'am Sorry.

2008-04-04T03:17:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday my dearest Brother!:D
Though we always argue..but you're a great brother.

Caught Flood today,the water were all so fake.And they're like wasting water!:S
Camp,camp,camp,camp,camp.God bless that it'll be a super good one.:(
To someone,I'm really sorry.But to another someone,I'm NOT sorry.
You don't take me for granted,and I don't wanna see you.

I'll take you someday to somewhere and we'll fly together.
imlovingyousodeep.

2008-04-02T10:00:00.000-07:00

Omg!The drilling noise has been on for 3 days!Argh.

You see,i'm not in school again..thats not important.
I'm having my class camp next week and i'm already very nervous now!I can't wait for it actually.At first,i planned not to go.But i think it'll be great if i can get closer with my classmates after the camp,so.....I'll go:D
I'm still coughing a little,and i vommited at 6am in the morning for idk what reason.
Btw,caught Shutter ytsd with Mw,Jiajin,Qisong&Darius.It's good and..scary. D:

I want papa to come RP so he can meet me everyday!hehhh:D

2008-03-28T20:47:00.000-07:00

I feel so angry.
It's fucking 4days already!And I'm still coughing like hell,now my head hurts like shit!

w t f.

wait,
i hate school so much,suddenly.i don't feel like going..
i don't wanna see some faces..

(how i wish i'm alrdy 18 now.)

Screw you!

2008-03-27T10:14:00.001-07:00

Omg,I thought things between you&I got better.
Didn't expect it got worst.AHHHH,damn.Whats wrong with you?
You are bloody rude,i'm trying all the time.and then you?
.
.
don't even give a fuck about it.
(sucker)

I'm still sick,my eyes are swollen,my back aches,wanted to go sch today but I can't wake.Cough syrup doesn't work at all.Hopefully I'll get well by tomorrow.I'm coughing like mad now.
Ohhhh and Dad gave me 200bucks for hair extention&things i wna buy,but i promise him i'll keep the money..and in case my hp bill bomb,then i can use his money to pay my bill.hehehehehe.:B
I'm rotting at home for 2days...and I'll continue rotting till next Monday.
I'm addicted to this very cute korea game!~
I'm sure I'll go crazy if Jam Hsiao comes over to SG,i'll make sure i go to his autograph session even if I'm alone!:D

i cooked macaroni yesterday,so...KISS THE COOK!
it's late now.gonna play game and then sleep.(:

2008-03-25T20:56:00.000-07:00

I find myself very selfish.But I believe most of us are selfish too.
Went back home halfway from school because I feel like vommiting plus sore throat is killing me.
Going to see the doctor once Mom gets home...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solar_eclipse is so funnnnn.:D

I miss Ashrul!):

2008-03-21T20:20:00.001-07:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGG.
I LOVE CLANNNNNAD SO MUCH!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

fyi,it's some very very nice anime.

2008-03-18T21:19:00.000-07:00

-
F off.

2008-03-18T00:08:00.000-07:00

i've never been like this before.

gaaah, everything will be alright soon.(i hope)
happy sports day.

--,run with all your life.jiayou.

2008-03-15T00:02:00.000-07:00

The Spiderwick Chronicles is amazing!
13 is a good day for me.
Jaslyn will never be replaced by anybody else.
ily sister!you rocks.[:

Digimon Tamers is awesome.......

you almost..took my heart away.but no matter what,we're just friends.thats it(:

2008-03-08T18:02:00.000-08:00

Our favourite.

DRAAAAAAAGON BOAT:D

Yesterday was another great day,went to East Coast with A,E&Winda.Couple bike with Ashley,E skated,Winda ride a single bike herself.Took photos at Bedok Jetty.A,Winda&I played the dragon boat,it only last for 2minutes and its 3 bucks per person.Walked to Parkway and bought Marks & Spencer's dark choco for mommmy.Reached home around 10.
So manyyy movies I wanna watch,gonna look for a movie partner.

I wanna watch Rule #1 but it's freaking NC166666666666666666.Argh!:S

Sky of Love

2008-03-07T01:46:00.001-08:00

Sky of Love is great.

3 men around 18-20 cried too.

The last day of school,form teacher rewarded us for helping so much for the Carnival by treating us Pizzas.Must have cost a bomb, appreciated though.

Yayyy,couple bike again with A tomorrow!Ohhh,Happy belated Birthday Tiffany laogong.(26feb)Sorry for the late wishes.Love you always.

http://www.sanriotown.com/psycho/psycho6/psycho6_us.htm, try this.Psychological test:D

Koide Keisuke is hottttt.

HANDSOME RIGHT?!He's mine.Ha haha.

2008-03-06T01:46:00.001-08:00

pretending still.

thankyou meiwei for telling me so much.iloveyou.(:

2008-03-05T01:20:00.000-08:00

Serve me right,right?
I'm tired of all this motherfucking shit.

.
.

Why whenever i do something good,no one realize it?whenever i did something bad,everybody start to blame me.........this world is so unfair.

crying doesn't helps,but i just can't stop..

2008-03-01T23:19:00.000-08:00

I've finished watching Sky Of Love online!Thanks to Meiwei❤
But both of us are still gonna catch it next Thurs.

I don't like this guy from my class...I think he's boring and he's a big bully!So what if he's older than us?He should respect us& not bully us!I find no reason to respect a big bully like him.
How am I gonna survie being in the same class with him for 1 whole year?zzz.
Whhhhhhhhhhhhateva.

Now I realize I cook badly..The egg i made just now sucks,stickkkkky.D:

you should know now,i gave up.i should stop dreaming.
**,you must be happy,always..❤

2008-02-28T21:49:00.000-08:00

I'm so gonna watch Sky Of Love!!
Recently,MW has been reading the chinese novel of : Sky of Love,then she tell me part of the story.It's sooo fucking nice!
Did i mention that i caught the movie L:Change the world too?Omg,holy.The show was superb.
Shutter,The Eye,1,000 BC.Sooo many to watch.D:

School has been quite well,cept for haircheck and stuff.Passed my overall with an lousy percentage.Stupid maths.Staying back in school till 2 ytsd,the guys were great.They waited for me because they know I'm angry with them not doing the Lit proj.Went IMM&Jurong Library with Esther ytsd too,joked around as usual.I think I laughed quite alot yesterday.
I skipped Chapel today with MW& some of my classmate.I know its not a nice thing to do but you see,some problem really makes things troublesome.
I can't believe I dreamt of Him.Ha ha,seen him so many time in school.I guess i'm crazy.
Plus,some jerks really piss me off.Shall not go into this.

You don't block my way you,go away!
I where got block your way!dont anyhow way way way lah!
Stop it,stop waying around both of you.just give way to me!

Ha haha.:D

2008-02-26T02:03:00.000-08:00

You won.
You paid me back with all those shit i used to give you.

oh shit you.

2008-02-23T03:27:00.000-08:00

hello you,
i'm being nice to you,you need help from me,i help you as much as i can.and yet youre taking me for granted.i'm trying to be nice,be a nice girl that everybody will like.but once i cannot stand all these pretence,then i'm gonna do something that you can never imagine.
sucker like you doesn't need people to be nice to you,
seems like youre the one who can get irritated by little things huh.sorry but i'm a person who get irritates by people like you.c'mon,we're all human beings yet youre treating most of us like your dog.now i know why they gossip bout you sometimes.and your ***** really irritates me.stop screaming you dumbass.as if people can't hear you.once youve got * *,you'll forget about everything.
shit you.w-hore.stop pretending,your skills are all so lousy,even a 3yr old kid can see that youre pretending.
.
.
whatever,sucker like * really mke me pissed.
Carnival today!went around to sell Famous Amos cookies,i think i sold alot.
bought about 20packets home because they can't finish(i'm sooooo good).
handsome ran away halfway through his shift.stupid.
Beloved Twinkle came with 1 of his friend.Finally got a chance to see him for 2minutes.
Twinkle told me that Jaslyn is having her concert tonight,pray hard that her concert will be the best tonight,love you sister!<33333 Played pirate ship with Elgene,Brandon,Meiwei,Huiwen,Hongchen&BingXiang,hah.freaking fun.even though its small and kinda slow,but its veryyyy shiok.i don't find it lame:S went back home ard 5 and then went to Msl to have dinner. I rly wna watch Death Note.....Mom promise me tht if my friends are not free tmrw,she'll accompany me.Hope she will keep her promise.D: I love my classmate!:D

Oh,Happy Belated Birthday Joyce!:D

ihate**!!

2008-02-20T01:27:00.000-08:00

♥Do you still remember me?

Didn't attend school today.Maybe tomorrow too.
Went to Sentosa on my bday with E,A,XE,Alvin&Roger.E,A&XE passed me a big Swensen box,an its an ice-cream cake!(:Roger shared his problem with me through the bus ride.Cheer up ya.Then played Skyride & Luge when we reached Sentosa..Only A,XE,Alvin&I went to play,they sang Bday song for me while we're in the skyride,the people around were looking at us.Loved it though.Thanks guys!Love you.Got sprayed water by one of the guy working there.Reached home around 2am.
Sunday was BingXiang's birthday,went to PlazaSing and had lunch with MeiWei at Sakae,then meet up with Seejun&Bingxiang,played Audi at bunk and then they went back around 3.Meiwei and I went to Orchard,took neoprints and both of us got a F21 tanktop.Went back and meet up with Mom&Dad.Went home after that.
Monday went to school,then went to have lunch with Meiwei&others after school.Went back home after lunch,Tuesday with Esther.(:

Got back some of my results,very disapointed with my marks.
Eng:15/25
Chi:38/50
Science:25/30
Maths:2/25
Geo:14/30
After getting back my maths result,I almost fainted.I just feel like dropping back to NT.Fuckkkk.Its all my freaking fault not practicing.& BingXiang& I got the same marks,he still so happy. :S
& I just need 1 more freaking mark to pass my geo.Shietttttttttttttttttttttttt.
I feel like killing myself.)':

Okay forget it,if mye's result is still the same.then welcome me back to NT.
ARGHHHH,i just don't feel like going back to school..

2008-02-17T06:14:00.000-08:00

♥You're still not coming home.

Happy belated birthday to Seejun&Me.
and Happy birthday to BingXiang(:
I had fun on my birthday,and today.Will blog about it tmrw,or th day aft. tmrw?

I fall into traps easily,especially love.
whats the point for me to miss you like a dumbass when i know youre not coming back?
we're not meant to be.

I think I..

2008-02-15T22:57:00.000-08:00

♥If only one word can work out,everything.

Happy Valentines Day.A late one,but still.I love everyone.
Tomorrow's my birthday and I reccieved my first present from Huitian today.She's very nice,she got me a very nice hellokitty box.Thanks so much,Ily:)
I'm not really excited about tomorrow,didn't really plan well for it.thats the outcome.
And some of them doesn't have money to dine at Hk cafe,so i just drop the idea.
Suddenly my heart felt so bad.Idk why.

School was alright,examexamexams.i've feeling that Ms Foo is coming to get us soon..Hope not.
Got 24 and a half upon 35 for Science,I feel like i've got everything same as ZiAn,no Melvyn!Hah,we've got the same marks and a few question same.Total defence today,not having lights&fans wasn't that bad.recess was the worst part.We ate this fucking packet food,and it's sooo disgusting.Though it doesn't taste bad,but if you see.You'll puke.How I wish there's no war in Singapore ANYMORE!If not we're gonna consume that.Now I know the people in the past were soooo ke lian.:(
Yesterday was Vday,celebrated it with Esther.Caught Jumper with her at Amkhub,it was great!:D& I've met another jerk,why must all this jerk appear in my life?Luckily i'm not so stupid now.GET A LIFE YOU!
Oh,Mom bought me a cake 2days back.i love it xD

Okay I don't know why I feel very.. :(
I think school sucks,* is taking me for granted and I hate it.
not only school,my life!I feel like staying at home everyday,sigh.
I'm sorry Eugene,I didn't see you this morning.serious.

(Mr Lim Bing Seong xD)

My birthday wish is....

*** b***, and be happy everyday.

For the time being,I'll forget you.

2008-02-12T00:13:00.000-08:00

She's right there waiting for you,why don't you go over and bring her along with you?

Tday is the start of the common test week.Had English and HE today,Eng was like hell.I don't know how to answer the question,so my answers were all in broken english.HE was alright but I don't like the part where you have to write your essay.I spent 10minutes looking at it and wrote a few words then i gave up the 10marks.Really regretted not reading the textbook.All i wrote on the paper was crap.
After recess we went back to class,saw people spraying something into 2/7's class.I don't know what are they spraying but Zihui told me there's a guy in his class got handmouth and foot disease.Had Lit test,quite happy with the journal.Maths after that,got back my CNY homework.Got 12/15 marks,very happy because i improved alot.Miss Woon wrote something nice behind.Before the bell ring,I dropped my specs on the floor and Mr Lee start to tell people to greet him and Miss Woon,so I didn't pick it up after we greeted them.Someone stepped on my specs and it broke.And I didn't see his/her face clearly.now I can see a single shit at all.My heart hurts like hell,rushed to Vista alone and went to the optician shop to repair it,1 lense = 30$ gone.Mom didn't blame/scold me. D:
Anyway,I've got 15/20 for my Geo test.I think i'm quite happy with it because its my first time doing the paper.Still gotta work harder.
Lit&Chinese tomorrow,argh!

4more days........Feel like going ice-skating,but its like wth-.-!
We'll see!Loves.

2008-02-09T04:29:00.000-08:00

I may not be useful now.But one day, I want to be of help to you.

Hello!I'm very bored so i decided to blog about today.Went out with A&E just now,thought I can be the first one to reach.In the end i'm the latest.I bet people's gonna dislike me,because i'm always late!I can't kick away this stupid habit.Lollll.Sorry A&E.
Trained to Amk and bought tixs for AhLong Pte Ltd at 1pm.Then 2 of their friends came.The movie was great!Really good:),Then went to the arcade and played.I don't understand why i'm so lousy in the hitting game.Born to be,heh.Then train back to wdls,bought fruit tarts for my family.A&E came to my house,eat,talk and they went home .

I like the envy people,i always think that theyre very lucky.Like they've nice family,looks,great friends,good life and they'll get anything they want.I must admit i've a nice family,afew great friends that i can trust(others?nonono.i'm just being friendly and treat them as normal friend).but i don't think i'm leading a good life,my attitude sucks like shit.and i think the way people look at me is like i'm not friendly.okay,there will be a vulgarity spitting out from my mouth most of the time.i'm trying hard not to speak so much but i know i can't be perfect.but i'm just trying,to control my mouth and myself.
ive got what i want(most) and i know i can't ask for the whole world.but my life is not as good as the others,wellllll.it doesn't matter.i'm still me!forever me,i won't be affected by the others.

CT IS JUST NEXTTTTTTT WEEK.Gonna study tomorrow.
Bye!

2008-02-08T07:29:00.000-08:00

Yayyy happy chinese new year.:D
Yesterday was great,went to dad's side.then at night,went to mom's side.didn't get a chance to gamble.but thats quite good right?no gain no loss.
took family photo.I'm sure i look freaking ugly.:S
Left and reach home around 11.
Woke up around 9plus and went to the temple to pray Ahgong(dad's side).went to a nearby coffeeshop and had lunch.went to gugu house after that,watched tv there and chatted alot of funny things.Dad drove me home and the 3 of them went out.Alone at home till now~12am:D
going out with A&E tomorrow for a movie,AHLONG!!!!Cousins are coming to my house tomorrow i guess.I feel so lady wearing a dress~somemore its pink!xD

sometimes i think i'm being too nice to people and some are taking advantage...........(ummmm.)
not to praise myself but thats how i personally feel.
i must be more..don't know how to say.:S

I thought this year is a better year,
but I didn't know its worst than last year,maybe..

2008-02-05T23:19:00.000-08:00

Happy Cny Eve!:D

Went to school today,school's fun though only 21 people in my class attended school.Did the Cny art.Hah,concert was kinda bored.After school went Cwp with Esther, Alvin and his 2 friends.
Then went to Pastamania,had Unagi Pasta,omg its damnnn nice uhhh.After that went to walk around,ate icecream.hah,went back and reached home at 1.

I must stay up late today.Tomorrow's the day!gotta get fbt with Huitian for our camp:D
hope tomorrow will be a good day.:D

i love dango!xD
10more days.

2008-02-03T00:44:00.000-08:00

ARGH!moodswing,SUDDENLY!for no reason,or maybe....fuck!:S
happy birthday Liwen!loveyou.
and happy birthday in advance to Alvin!(tmrw)

Revenge is a funny word i know,
but should i?to him?
not to the one to treat me badly,but the one who regret.

i must be crazy.

2008-01-29T00:46:00.000-08:00

That moment is never coming back,♥

School was fine today,had English test.My grammer sucks nowdays.Vocab too.been using too much chinese.:\
Recess got called out by this indian teacher.Mw,Hw,Huitian,Seri all kena.Thought teacher only want our names,then i wrote down.Shit!!Didn't know she asked us out to scold us.pubor teacher!Hw,Mw&I got this don't know what 2nd warning.Damnnnnn.Say tomorrow no change go down office striaght.bitch lah.I'm alrdy brave enough to pin my hair to the sideeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.still asking for much.tmd.
Aft school went to Mw house,made rotiprata.very nice uh:DThen meet Zh,eat mashed potato.eating alot nowdays.Fats D: Then saw my dearest Jaslyn,Yixin and others.:D
Zihui damn funny,hehhhh.:D

Fuck,I feel like skipping school tomorrow.But i don't wanna stay at home,wants to find someone badly to accompany me:S
Okayyyy.
BYE.

2008-01-28T02:16:00.000-08:00

Kian says I'm acting cute on the first picture,NOOOO!I told him i'm always that cute.(okay you can slap me.i know i'm bhb:()

Hello,I'm feeling better after sharing my problems with Esther.Thanks so much my dear:D

So anyway,I went out with Meiwei yesterday.Had mac for lunch and took neoprint.(i look fugly!)Then we trained down to Amkhub,Mw got me a white top that look like a dress for my bday present&she also got herself 1 too.so that means we have the same top!(see above)Thanks darling:)
We got ourself tubes too,because there were too many people staring at us,maybe because we wore the same top?or maybe they think that we're from mars..I seriously think that we don't look weird at all.Trained back and went home.
Went to school today,mw&i got caught by Ms Sharifah.She said that both of us doesn't understand her instructions,but it's damn unreasonable.Who on earth says we can't have our hairs touching our eye?Teachers seriously thinks that its ugly,but thats what we like and we can't go for what the f we want.Forget it,mw&i feel like she's going against us.There are few of my classmates with fringe touching their eyebrown.Our vicechairman is the one,Ms Sharifah didn't do anything to her.Whatever.
Had P.E lesson next,the handsome angmoh teacher came to teach us.We did stupid high jump in the hall because it's raining today.I hope we won't be doing that next week.Elgene also thinks that what we do for P.E are stupid.:S
Recess with cliques and blablabla,last period was assembly.Chatted with Ps&Mw happily until Mr Azman seperate us.Then went to our house thingy,sat there like a dumb for 1hour.After school had lunch at Vista with Mw,met with Zihui and then sent Mw home.Both of us went to play the swing and we talked bout lots of things.Home after that.

Common test is just right after Cny.and i'm totally not prepared for it!
Test tomorrow for Eng,I hate my Chinese teacher!& i feel like going Shandong,don't even have to think about it,my mom will say:"NO WAY YOURE GOING OVERSEAS WITH THE SCHOOL!FREAKING 10DAYS OKAY!SO LONG!CANNOT CANNOT!"
I know she's worried xD

Girlfriends,enjoy your camp.hang more after your camp.Loves!
Esther,JIAYOU!♥
I♥Cliques;Mw,Ht,Zh,M,Ps&Yk!

2008-01-25T18:26:00.000-08:00

fuck all this nonsense,
i don't understand why my fucking mind love to think so much.
i'm trying damn hard to act as if thrs nothing happen.
but i just can't.fuck!what is this.argh.
- is soooo.....i can't describe.but i just don't like the way - acts!argh!!!!!!!!!!x1000000000times.
omg.i rly cannot tahan alrd.

f u c k!

friendship's gonna break.
schools gonna kill me.
he's driving me crazy.

fuck this life.fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.!!

2008-01-23T19:11:00.000-08:00

im back.finally!
hehhh.busy to update.plus my brother is chionging his maple.
had a hard time begging him to let me use.
school was fine,i had a wonderful lunch yesterday.(i skipped sch tday.)
went cwp aft school with gfs and bought bubbletea,aft that waited for mom&bro to come.then we had pastamania.brother ordered the bake rice.the cheese is tmd smelly.almost faint while waiting for my pizza.Esther came and meet me when all of them went home,we went to walk around after my lunch.then we started crapping..went to the library and drew Esther,:D
Saw primary school buddies!Norizwan,Dinie,Afiq and forgotten.Hi-5 with my cutest Norizwan:D
Saw Jaslyn ong qian ying,Esther& I followed behind.Smsed her " look behind you " and she turn.she got so high.:D
Anyway my dear sister,last long with your boyfriend okay,and don't spend too much time with him,must spend sometimes with me too okie!:D(just joking.)
Went to fairprice with Mommy and reached home around 7plus.

I'm so sorry Ashley,I'm late to scold that spammer:(You know i couldn't use the comp eh.
heh,movie aft cny with tiffany&others:D
cny is around the corner eh,i'm both happy and sad.happy because i can get angbaos&eat alot!sad because i'll gain weight.:(
how i wish i got a worm in my tummy that eats everything in my stomach and i won't grow fat.
NVM!
Carnival!!!!it's the last year alrd.i've 2% of confidence to sell 10 tixs.hehe xD

letting go,
想念。过去但是回不去了。
i'll be missing you.

2008-01-18T10:37:00.000-08:00

Omg! don't you think he's hot?!:D

Yay,can't wait for Sunday.
I need to get a new shoulderbag!Plus,piercings!
One of my earhole shut down already,I know using shut down is very weird.:S
Zihui seems to be depress this few days,tried my very best to make him smile.Hope he'll be alright on Monday.Cheerup!

Don't go too far,you know it won't do any good to you.I'm so tired and sick.I can't stop thinking about you.Youre seriously driving me nuts.
(A,please stop hurting yourself.)

2008-01-16T23:07:00.000-08:00

Hey hello!
There's a little time for me to use to computer.
Gotta blog about school,suddenly i've so much to say(not too much.)

First,my chinese characters are much much more nicer than last year.It's true,my words are now neater and smaller.
Secondly,i'm starting to love books.maybe its because of the reading session in the morning?i borrowed a very nice book from Liwen,and i'm still reading it[:
Thridly,all my teachers are wonderful.but my current maths teacher suck big times.
Fourth,i get to sit with Meiwei in class though Ms Sharifah changed our position.we're still together!
Fifth,i've made 2 new friends in my class that their birthday is 1 day before and after mine!(15-seejun,16-me&17-pingseong[don'tknow how to spell])
Lastly,I love my class,somehow. I can sense that my class camp's gonna be fun with them.so i've decided to go.(maybe.)
Maybe things will change after some time?hope not,common test is on week7.and carnival is coming,cny,birthday.sooo busy!\:

ystd,went to school late.felt very sleepy.aft school,went to meet mom&bro.had our lunch and went back home.went t Fragant with Kian.Jiamin was there too,she's cute!:) Back home around 8plus.
Slept around 11.
tday,school was okay.unlucky day today,i had stains on my shirt,so ugly!!science was fun,pingseong make the lightbulb spoil.haha!,needa rush our Lit work.stupid comic.haha.

cny!faster come.i'm lack of cash now:(
thanks Gatsper fr your present,i rly love it alot!
Melisa,enjoy your camp!
till then!

your face appear in my mind everyday,
whenever i saw you,i wish i could turn away.
i really don't know how to face you anymore.
i couldn't recognize myself anymore.

2008-01-15T01:46:00.000-08:00

loving someone is great.
Esther!I envy ya!:D
i'm going to change already,i must stop thinking crap.
i won't make things possible if i know its impossible.
i'm contented with my life now.
i've got what i need i guess.
i've to learn to let thing go.

Finally One Missed Call today with A, Meiwei,Buddy&Alvin!
Meiwei was the best,she didn't do anything to scare me.
It's really scary.My heart almost drop:S
MATHS IS SO DAMN DIFFICULT!
I wanna marry with a maths genius,so that he can teach me maths everyday.
Mom says it'll be boring to marry a maths genius who only know how to mulitply,plus,minus and divide. heh:S
(p/s:played catching with my mom this morning while walking to buddy block.heh!)

youre the only one i don't bear to let go.
ireally wish to turn back time.
its soo impossible..you just don't understand how things go in my life.
and i don't know how you feel too.

2008-01-10T21:21:00.000-08:00

okay time for update.i'm very busy you see.
and also, i've nothing much to blog about.this blog is getting so dead D:
skipped school on Wed,overslept plus don't wanna go home so late(2pm).
Went cwp with Meiwei after school and took Neoprints,went up to the foodcourt to have lunch.Saw A&E,so we had our lunch together.We split up after that,meiwei&i went to the library.borrowed 2books and went back to cwp,waited for Esther to come and meet me.After E reached,meiwei went home.Esther&I studied at Mos,waited for A to arrive and we took 900 to Vista,went home after that.
Today,went home after school.pathetic.
I wanna watch one missed call!hopefully by next week.[:
anyway..someone or maybe they pissed me off real badly.
(stop reading)

i really cannot stand it.i don't know what the hell is on your mind!(fyi,i also dont want to know whats on your mind.)i dislike people to act like as if they like me and bitch about me behind my back.goodness,i can't believe you can go around telling people about the past.It's my fault,but can you just shut up?i've my own pride too.I know you're angry,but can you at least spare a thought for me?I only told my bestfriends,other than that no one else.since its over,stop all this crap!(ps:i rly hate people making fun of me and my friends.)
how good can you be?

what does it mean if you've a hard time breathing?..
mom says that its because of heart problem.is it true?
(i'll not think too much.)

Love you Meiwei!:D

Meiwei&I:D

Till next time,loves.

2008-01-08T01:46:00.000-08:00

Here to say,
I enjoyed my day.

Plus, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIANHUI!:D
Bye!

2008-01-05T19:59:00.000-08:00

i'm gonna break down soon,
(whymustmybestfriendfallinlovewithim?idontblameyouatallbutimreallyreallyupsetaboutit,andireallycansensethatthisproblem
willtearourfriendshipapart..)

2008-01-05T18:24:00.000-08:00

Miss me?
Didn't have time to post because my brother is staying at home so i'll have to let him use the computer.
I was choosen to be the Chinese rep, but I still prefer Art than Chinese~
wednesday of school was alright, haircheck and stuff.
After school went Cwp with Esther, XE, Ashley& Zihui.
Jacky accompanined me to have my haircut and came up to my house to watch I am Legend, its superb!!
thursday, started studying and stuff, Maths teacher is funny. My class teacher were all great. After school went Vista with Meiwei,Huitian,Zihui&Jacky.Laughed alot,walked home with Jacky after that.
friday, had normal lessons and got very bored.thr were not even 1 table for us to sit during recess.went to meet brother and mom for lunch after school.

heard quite some things from A, cheer up my darling. i'm not hurt or what at all.so don't you worry.andand,since he's ALWAYS acting like this.we can tell that he's really not good in handling relationship and friendship stuff.so don't be too sad!loves.

meeting E&A ltr~ post when i'm free. MISS ME!
(i'm working very hard for my maths,i hope i can improve.)

2008-01-01T04:09:00.000-08:00

those memories i used to have ain't that sweet anymore.

yep, i mean hate. hate! still hate. (A should know what i'm talking bout.)
- confessed.it's not the right time.

family day out, w/o brother. wore a pinktanktop, skinnies& black shawls.Mom says i look very weird. But i don't think so. Wasn't feeling well halfway through, went back home.
Okay, tomorrow will be the first day of school and i'm soo not prepared yet. afraid that something bad would happen. Gonna meet buddy in the morning..Meiwei didn't answer my call. Maybe meeting out Jamaine & Jaslyn for a movie tomorrow. Life without phone sucks, can't contact anyone. Now i have problem about meeting the both of them tomorrow.
Gonna be a nerd for tomorrow, fringe pinned up(maybe). long socks. long skirt(that doesnt mean my skirt used to be short):D

hope school go well tomorrow. pray hard, really hard.
Misses!

2007-12-31T09:46:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year!

Today wasn't that fun, but Zh & A did make me laugh alot[:
So woke up around 12plus and Zh came over to pass me fish food D:
Then wen off to meet A at cwp, sent my phone for repairing, thn bought Kfc back home.
Zh came and we had our lunch, went off to Vista and played catching with kids, Aaron& Jiaxi came to meet us, slacked around and went behind Chr. It was dark and creepy. Slacked around then, met Gary & others, went to Vista kitchen.. They had supper and blaaah~
Aaron gave me a light stick, i like it alot because its PINK!:D
Scolded (either -'s friend or -.) fuck off. His friend was disturbing, got so pissed by him\:
No hphone = no music, gonna be boreddddddddd to death tomorrow.
Needa wake early tomorrow again. :S

A wish for a new year : My family&friends to be happy everyday. Also, hope i'll not drop to NT when i reach sec3;D
I hate blah. blah is not the one i use to know alrdy. I REALLY HATE BLAH.

Okay now happy new year once again.ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD, those who should go away from me, GO AWAYYY! :/

2007-12-30T03:14:00.000-08:00

STUPID! Still didn't get to see - today! :'(
Thanks to Dad's friend, my relationship with him has got better.

Today, went out with my family, fishing of couse, my brother, brother's friend and i talked bout dirty stuff. Chatted with Dad with some personal things, he's really growing old each day.. The way he rushes his work really make me feel bad and hurt.
Went to Amk because Dad wants to get a new phone.(N81 8GB) But it's still not launched yet.
Brother, brother's friend& I got sausage wrapped with rotiprata. Freaking nice i tell you. D:
Then we got dvds! privated ones. Heh, then went back home.. Argued with Mom bout tomorrow's stuff.
I'm having little fishes as my pet now, i feed them with rasin bread and Zh thinks that I'm crazy. He's gonna pass me some food and whatever shit tomorrow:D

Ohhh. A, ZiHui, Jiaxi& Aaron is coming over to my house tomorrow. I seriously wanted to ask Buddy, but i don't think he's back yet, he didn't on his cell either.
School's reopening, Sec1s are coming in.. :D
& There's alot of people (i don't know) will be in our class next yr, never heard their names before. Hope that I'll meet new new new friends! xD

Lastly, happy birthday Brandon(:

*pray hard that tomorrow will be a good day*

2007-12-29T00:21:00.000-08:00

I'm tried to watch I Am Legend from movie6.net, but the quality is really bad.
I know i shouldn't complain but its really very hard for me to watch.
So i stopped at part2. \:

Ytsd, woke up around 12:30pm. Suppose to meet Jamaine at 12pm.. So called her after i woke up and found out that she's still at home. Went down to 514 to meet her, waited for the others to come. Bernard came first, followed by Marcus(+his friends), Jiaxi, Zihui& Yishiun. After Zihui left, Jamaine, me, Yishiun& Jiaxi went to Cwp for a movie, we wanted to buy Mac in but none of us have bags to put in, so we have to rush and finish all the food. We watched Alvin & The Chipmunks(4.10). The show was superb! Talking chipmunks are really cute, Theodore is sooo chubbbbby& Alvin is cool! I like Simon most because he's smart and he look really good with his spects.
After the movie, Jiaxi went up my house and took his bike home. Everyone went home after that. :]

I was thinking to ask my friends to come over to my house on the 31st. Of couse if my Mom allow, we'll do countdown. But if she don't allow, we can't. But I'm just afraid that some people might think i'm i'm posing them. But seriously, I'm not. Just wanna have fun :)
We'll see, we'll see.

I think if this thing goes on, my life would be ruined. Felt very bad when you talk to me, I rather choose to ignore you, but i cant make it. I'm really lousy.
I've so much to say, so much to let you know. I don't even know how to greet you anymore...
I'm like losing all my confidence towards you. I'm trying real hard.

2007-12-27T09:26:00.000-08:00

I'm freaking cold now, after watching my anime&finish posting, i'll go and sleep.
Yep, i'm going to meet out with my primary school buddies tomorrow. :D
Though alot of people is not coming (ESP JASLYN), but i'll still get to see some of them.
I miss Jaslyn alot, i've so much to tell her. Really hope we can meet up more often when school reopens.

I didn't went out yesteday. I went out with my family to AmkHub today. Dad's going to change his phone to N81 soon. So that means i'll be getting back my k810i. :D

Actually i don't know whats the point of me blogging now......
School's reopening and i'm feeling very nervous. Cuz i'm afraid i'll get caught by teachers.
& I WANNA CUT MY FRINGE SHORTER. told my mom a million times and she kept delaying it. I still need to get pens! So much thing i still haven't do. \:
I think i'm going back to maple, sounds lame but.. who cares? Maple is to kill time! (fyi:I THINK only)

Anyway, don't read this part.
Exactly, like what E says who are you to scold her? Youre not related to him at all, just friends.
You 2 might be very close friends, but its his family problem afterall. You said you were asking him to study all the time. More to slacking i guess? i really felt bad for her. you just DONT HAVE the right to say ALL THIS.

Let's meet up soon Andy. :)
Loves.

2007-12-26T23:17:00.000-08:00

I deleted te 25th post. I don't want to waste peoples time reading it.
k810i has red colour now and k850i have 5megapixel camera. So regretted buying k810i. \:

It's my first year celebrating Christmas with my friends, the year behind was with my family members. The last time i had a xmas party is on 2002 at my aunt's house. It's quite a boring one this year, the part where i enjoyed the most : it's with my good friends. :)
The place we go are boring but we still laughed alot together. :D

Xmas eve, i went to countdown with my family at Pasir Ris. Talking on the phone with A&E. when the clock strike 12, everyone shouted. They complained its noisy. Heh:]
Xmas day, woke up around 8plus and prepared. Waited for cousin to come my house and we went to meet Kh& others(Kh, Shanran, Alan, Eric, Haoren, Pinky, Ck, Jeremy& Alvin) at fragant, we took bus to Sunplaza.. Meet with Ahtong and we went to Sembawang park.. They started to catch crab.. Alan said he wants my earlobe for Christmas, crazy. D: Mavis, Alfrey& Celina came after me&Meifeng left. Both of us went to Sp and had lunch, then I trained down to Bishan to meet A, then we went down to DG.. Meet up with E and then we went walking around, had mos for lunch. Trained down to Yishun and bus down to Safra. Wanted to play bowling but A&I don't know how to play and don't want to throw our face infront of so many people, we didn't play. We went to the arcade and started playing. A,E&I tried dancing Parapara. I'M THE LOUSIEST ONE :S I even saw people laughing at us when we were dancing. (but who cares?)
Esther& I talked to each other with the British accent.
Took bus back to Northpoint and A went to work, E&I went back to cwp and had Delifrance for our dinner. Went back home after that.

Suppose to meet up with A&E today again and watch I am Legend, but Mom says that i've been going out alot of times,reaching home late and spending alot of money. So she don't allow, i won't mind.. I must have limits. But I'm meeting the both of them later to pass Esther her money back.

School's starting soon and there's no more time to enjoy.
I've been enjoying and not revising since holiday started.. so i guess i'm staying home this week.
I miss buddy!
Ohhh, a xmas wish.. though its over. I still want to make a wish!!!
Hope 2008 will be a good year for everyone especially my family. A very very good one :]
AND
ihhwallamomogmacimrilwh. :0

I'm lazy to upload picts. zzz :\

Nobody can believe when we first got together,
they said we'll last, we're a pair..
and we broke off, people tried so hard helping us.
we got together& broke off again&again.
Nobody can believe cuz we're nothing for now.

2007-12-24T09:10:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! :D

I guess i'm going to enjoy mine.
I'm going fishing with Kian& others later. (with Meifeng too!)
Also meeting up with Ashley to Bugis. & then the 3(A,E&me) of us will be going to have our xmas feast! :D

those i wished to reply didn't reply, those who shouldn't waste their msg and reply me replied.
oh well whatever!
gonna sleep early now.. if not i'm gonna be late tomorrow.

update some other time!(:

2007-12-22T09:19:00.000-08:00

Esther asked me to update.
So i'm here to update.

Went to Vivo on Friday with Gfs & friends(caleb,aaron& etc,etc.)
It was quite boring at first. Caught National Treasure: Book of Secrets(5.05pm), Nicolas Cage is so HOT! The movie was great, just that their english was too difficult for me to understand. After movie, went to the skypool and play, it's drizzling. Caleb wanted to throw me into the skypool. Luckily I didn't get wet. Bus back to cwp with Aaron & Huiwen(others alighted.), got screened by police,wasted time and rushed back home. It's freakingggg dark when i was walking back alone. Damn afraid that someone might pop out from nowhere and kidnap me.(CHOY!) Okay you won't know how i feel. Lol.

Woke up around 12plus today, recieve a call from Meifeng. She wants to meet me out, meet her around 4 and went to Vista to look for Mom. Took my new specs and it look coollllll! Too bad it's red in colour. Went to find Kian& others at Rc. Eric LOVE to copy me. -.- Went back to change and went to Cwp, bought my blackheel(wink). & MF got her musicdisc and a pair of pumps. Meet up with Gfs, walked around. Went foodcourt for desserts. Laughed sooo loud till people looked at us. Saw Roger Aaron& people. Reached home around 9plus.

Gonna wake early tomorrow for work, I'm hungry now, I'm so afraid that i'll gain weight! Save me man!!(AYE DONT CARE ALRDY!)

I thought of it, i know some things can't be forced especially when it comes to love. I'm really sick of all this. I don't know what i should do either. 顺其自然吧 (don't know how to write in eng)

Byebye.

2007-12-20T18:23:00.000-08:00

EDITED!
it's different one..

Went to Bishan with family in the noon, after that Ahyee came&meet us. She drove me&bro down to Amk, Mom&Dad went to Pasir ris. Bro got himself 2tops,2 3/4pants& 1jeans.
170+$ spent on him. Then i got myself a pinkdress& a bluedress? I got the same dress with Ahyee, mines pink&hers grey.. The worker there thought that Ahyee's my Mom. Lol!D: Both of us gonna wear the same dress on newyear. Yayyy. Went Pasir ris and look for parents, went back home and chatted on the phone with Gfs.

i don't care what people think about me, it's a human nature. you see i see, i see you see. right?
seriously i don't mind all this little stuff at all.

I can't change anything, i really don't know whose speaking the truth.
you were almost a part of my memories, and yet you appear infront of me again and again..
i don't mind ya appearing, but why is it always the wrong time.
the way you treat me really make me angry, okay maybe not that angry.
i know from the start everything is my fault, I BLAME MYSELF! i thought i will be happy, but i'm wrong. thats the path i choose, i still have to move on though everything is wrong.
i really hope things would get better after some times which i think its impossible.
i always ask myself why am i so stupid. serious, i really wanna know how come i so stupid one:s

PAUSED FOR 5minutes....

Stop thinking bout all this. it doesn't help at all.

Off to watch E zuo ju er wen [:!

2007-12-18T01:52:00.000-08:00

I'M AN SELFISH ASS.
I hope he's alright, same to the others.
]:

She misses you damn MUCH. More than I do, i guess?

(I hope youre missing me right now.. when i saw her writing bout how much she misses you, i cried.. i don't know why.. but i just cant stop crying. maybe she has already been a part of your life. now i don't know how am i gonna stay strong. I may not be as sad as Joyce, but i'm really tired. i thought nothing will happen to you and i can give you another chance.. She said i should patch with you, i must care about her feelings too.. you can't see this, can't see what i'm writing now, but you know. I miss you, really alot. knowing that you& her talks on the phone everynight really hurts me. what about me? if she's the one you love, i'll bless the both of you.. even if you don't love her and she loves you, i'll still let her have you..Marcus! i miss you. sorry for being SO stupid ALWAYS. )

2007-12-17T08:33:00.000-08:00

Past 12am alrdy.
God bless marcus&brandon ltr on.
hope everything will be fine.

gotta work with mommy ltr..
and i ate alot today. wthhhh. fatfatfatttttts. >:
shopping with mommy on Wed. AHHH!

Jacky is leaving SG tomorrow, HEYHEY! TKCARE ALRIGHT!
Come back soon, we'll go out after you come back. Or maybe celebrate xmas together? (:
Have a safe trip there! :D

i must control my temper.

2007-12-17T00:23:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i find no reason to think about you.
I thought of the past and i remembered i've told you to wait for me.
but i left you.
Though i'm happy and enjoying my life, i still can't stop thinking about all those things youve told me.
I kept asking myself, why must people change after losing something.
I'm not the only one who's changing, you're changing alot too.
I know that everyone around thinks that i'm the one causing all these problem and making them hate me. But thr's always a reason behind doing this.
I want to explain.. I want to tell you. I just don't know how to explain it to you anymore. Even if i do, you won't even bother to listen. I may not know how you feel, but the things you tell the people around me rly make me feel uneasy. I want to ask you to disappear, but yea. the people around are right, its my fault. I guess i should be the one to disappear in your life.
youre no longer the one i used to know..
i (~~never~~) regret.

I know how you use to feel last time now, and I'm feeling the way you use to feel last time.
I guess youre alright now..

Smile

2007-12-15T21:18:00.000-08:00

Hoooo!!
Schools gonna reopen very soon!(2weeks?)

And I don't feel like going back, seriously. I DON'T! Though i've work hard and got into NA.. but i know that i'm gonna drop back to sec3NT. and i don't want to.. I'll try to work hard. tsktsk, cannot try. MUST!!! I won't want to waste my effort D:

I'm just afraid that i might drop back.. maybe i'm just thinking too much. gonna get some schoolbooks from popular soon. and also, should start borrowing books from the lib and read before school reopen. ohyaaaa. XE told me that Jiaxi&Huiwen got the same bag and she thinks that its the one i got from Zinc, theirs white and mines bronze. and i feel so extra nowww!! I told my mom i want to sell that bag and buy another one but she don't allow! Hope it'll be not the same as them.(dnt wanna be extra you see) & also, the bag is very smelly cuz' of the leather i think. :S
Meiwei and I are very happy cuz' we can be together next year and hang out together after school. cuz' we hardly hangout together:)
i hope next year will be a great yearrr. can't wait to see some of my friends already, like Elgene& people. they're wearing longpants next year!! cool:D
Enough of school stuffffff.

I only remembered on the 13th after i finish posting, i went to sleep from 4pm till 11plus next day's afternoon. There you can tell that i'm very very tired.
So I went out with Gfs ytsd, met XE&Esther. IM ALWAYS LATE. very bad habit. Shall be early next time round, sorry Esther! trained down to Bishan to look for Ashley. Walked around there and bought a pair of earrings. Had ljs for lunch/dinner. Laughed really hard.
Trained back home around 6plus. Slept around 2plus.

I'm waiting for my brother to bathe finish and then we'll go cwp together with my Mom.
Ohhh ya, my brother dyed his hair gold&brown. it's fucking amazing:DDDDDD!
& also, i must use proper eng to speak alrdy!! XE&I maybe baking cookies for xmas. Heeee!
I wanna make xmas card but i dont think i've the time...... ):
Hope that Leon will be alright tomorrow, Brandon&Marcus on tuesday. God bless:)

A picture before i go,

I sucks. D:

I can't hate him, I can't hate her too. It's the path i choose to walk,
I never regret cuz' i know it'll be better for you.

i'll make your heart jump,

2007-12-13T22:45:00.000-08:00

Kay I'm back, actually i decided to blog tomorrow..
But I'm going out tomorrow and since my family has already canceled the outing today cuz' to everybody's tired! my backbone, legs& arms are aching!!!
woke up around 9:30am on ytsd, prepared and meet Jacky. had our breadfast at 515.. went to meet Esther& XE after that, took bus to marine parade and cabbed down to eastcoast. Ashley alrdy reached thr and she waited for us for about 2hours. (sorry!) went to rent bike and Jacky ride me, went to checkin the chalet and slacked thr. Gfs, buddy&I start up the fire and bbq-ed the food. Seriously, it doesn't taste good. Clara auntie bought her puppy along, played with her puppy. Ashley& I went to rent bike.. the double one. We went to ride around at night, it's kinda creepy, but we still chatted alot bout our past. Esther went back around 11pm++. After that we went mac&7-11. slack till 2am plus. went back to Chalet, sat thr till 530am with my mom too. we talked bout lots of stuff:D. Ashley& I ride bike to mac and bought breadfast back for us(mom,me,xe,ashley&jacky). sat at the beach to have our breadfast and caught the sunrise.. we didn't get to see the sun. lol, then we slept at 7am++ in till 12pm. checked out and went home.

Kinda enjoyed it with my "friends" instead of my family. Hmmmmm :S
I'm tired and i'm going to sleep soon...... (i need alot of sleep BADLY!)
my eyebags are getting more and more worst, and my sleeping time is not stable at all!:(
meeting out gfs again tomorrow.. finally! i know what to get for them for xmas alrdy:D

before i end this, i would like to show you guys my favourite food for now.....
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SHAKERS FRIES(too sinful..)

tata people!

i'm hot, hot, hot.

2007-12-11T06:08:00.000-08:00

Thank God all of them are fine cept for Alfrey&GuanYi..
Hope they'll be alright still.
& MeiFeng! My cousin, hope she's able to make it tomorrow..... So long since i've met her.

(Warning : VERYYYY vulgar(to me). Don't read it if you cant stand it.)
Mom& I went to see the IDK who today. the person that incharge of Woodlands. SO MOTHERFUCKING GL i tell you. He thinks that I'm stupid cuz' i can't read the DAMN letter(i didn't notice the closing date, my bad though), they also think that we don't want the money cus' I got the bursary thing that they will award me with 250$ for my goodresults.. and my Mom pass up the form late. They just don't want to fucking help us. Since they want to award me, they shouldn't have this lj closing date right!? MOTHERFUCKING GL! Damn, CANT THEY JUST CALL US AND REMIND/TELL US BOUT IT?! They told me mom " i thought you dnt want the money " WHO THE FUCK ON EARTH DOESN'T WANT MONEY FROM SOME AWARD FOR GOD SAKE?! Even if you don't want you still have to take it. 250$ means ALOT to my family!! They should call us since they know that we didn't pass up the fucking form.. AND THE CLOSING DATE IS WRITTEN SOOOOO FREAKING TINY ON THE FORM, how they want me to notice it?! He still says "your daughter sec1 alrdy still dnt know how to read a letter?"
NABUEY CHEEBUAY. so he's trying to say that i'm stupid, i can't even read a SIMPLE letter lah! yea i am. I'm from NT what!. After hearing him say this, I pull my mom away and shouted "Whatever, I'm stupid and i don't need THEIR money". and we walked away. Though i kinda regret now... cuz' with 250$, i can buy soo much stuff. Mom is still hoping that they will let us take the $. We waited for 2hour just to wait for our turn to meet him. AND HE GIVE US THIS LJ ATTITUDE! HOLY, want reward students with good result then just give us the reward, STILL PUT WHAT CHEEBUAY CLOSING DATE?! Hongkan please. __!
(Sorry but I'm VERY pissed and i can't tolerate anymore.)

Am going to be very busy from tomorrow onwards,
Going for chalet tomorrow with Family, Gf& Buddy.
Thursday - Out with Family, Friday - Meeting out Esther, Saturday - Maybe meeting Jacky to go around SG.
&I'm sick. I'm very tired and my head hurts like fuck. Hope I'll be alright tomorrow.
turning in early, and Ashley injured her leg.. hope she's alright now. (:
And Happy Birthday to Alfrey in advance.......
Lastly, hope tomorrow doesn't rain. (pray hard). if not we're all going to have a hard time cycling and bbqing. :S
Finishing up my drawing and off to bed.
God, i've so much AND to add on.

I told Fad this last night : I WANT A EMO BOYFRIEND. (i'm not desprate!!)

I hope that tomorrow will be a greatday for Gfs&Buddy, especially Buddy!
I want him to enjoy before he leaves SG.
Tata, miss ya people.

(I'm alrdy contented with my life,i guess)

something for them..

2007-12-10T10:26:00.000-08:00

I pray hard that everything will be alright tomorrow.
Pray hard that nothing will happen to them.
Nobody wants to see them to end up like this either.
I'm sure they know their mistakes already.
Just 1 more chance.

God bless them.

a better life,

2007-12-09T08:15:00.000-08:00

Ignore my previous post. (deleted)
x's not really that important. gfs has become more important to me nowadays. :D
gonna meet Esther tomorrow..
i'm getting Ashley, Esther, XiaoEn&Jacky's xmas present, heh.
fbt shorts has been very popular now huh? heh.
I've made a new friend today, Andy.
He's a guy i always met a Bishan, the place my family& i use to go and fish.
I'm going fishing with Jacky before he leaves Sg no matter what!!!!!
Luckily he's coming to the chalet.. :D

i want to bake either cookies or cake for my brother before he go into his camp!!
but my house doesn't have the mircowave or oven.
I've been asking people around, all don't have one ..
gotta borrow books tomorrow.. heh.

i'm not happy. \:

i don't understand,

2007-12-08T08:14:00.000-08:00

i feel that i'm losing something or maybe someone very important soon.
sigh. i'm feeling very bad right now. idk why too. hope nothing will happen..
and i also hope blabla won't avoid me. :(..

Buddy rocks! he wrote a short&sweet comment for me. Asking me to find something worth to remember. & He's leaving Sg on 19th. He's able to come to the chalet. (happppy).
Esther, Ashley & XE will be going too. Ashley, XE&Jacky would be staying over...
& I saw Esther, Ashley&XE today. Bought Doreamon the movie. Gonna watch it later.

I hope they would be fine on the 11th of Dec anyway.

I ain't a bitch, and you were the one who toy me and you even dare to say I toy you. Oh please c'mon. Think before you speak& get a life, I don't want to hear any single shit out bout me from your mouth anymore. Screw you.

my mistake

2007-12-07T08:05:00.000-08:00

I've seen Esther's blog (ekbanana.blogspot.com) and I think she's the best girlfriend of mine[:
Though now we don't hang out as much as like last time. But she's always there when i needed someone to talk to. :D
Thanks so much Esther.

Both of us decided to blog about the same topic for today. So yeaa..
Some should already knows that me&him have already broken off a few days back. and thr's still some little things we still haven't settled yet. He started to call me a Bitch when he's online just now. I can assure that 99% he's referring to me. Beside bitch(i'm fine with him calling me a bitch), he said that i should go Geylang and be a prostitute. It sounds very mean and i don't like it at ALL. why would some people call its ex-gf to go and be a prostitute ? He might be very angry, but he shouldn't use a word like prostitute to vent his anger me. I have my own pride too. Calling me a Bitch is already very serious(to me).
But he's the one who did the wrong thing. Should he talks to OTHER girls during midnight when i'm asleep? Should he fall in love with another girl when he's still having a relationship with me?
Some might accept this kind of situation. but me, a hell NO.
Why should a boyfriend talks to OTHER girl instead of his girlfriend on the phone at midnight?
Thats so unacceptable. & I know he falls in love with another girl,
So he might be using me or the girl as spare tyre. Which i think is very low-class.
What he's doing now really turn me off, he asked me for patch and he went to ask people this " should i jio ******SWDGHWGSU ? " (fyi: ******SWDGHWGSU is someone i know, &i dont wish to mention it out).
Umm, what is this and what are you thinking about? Don't use me, i don't wanna be your spare tyre. If you love me, you shouldn't be doing all this stuff that makes people pissed.
You think doing all this makes you look more cooler, but i've to say this in a mean way :
i'm sorry but what youre doing now doesnt make you cool at all, its just making you look more&more like a loser. low-classsss!
friends around him might flame me or whatever shit, but i don't care. do you think i'm wrong? because of him, i've lost sooo many good friends. at least ive left him and ive nothing else to worry bout. i still think that he's worst then his friend. \:
Both of us made an mistake, i won't push the blame ALL to him. at least, he should know his LIMITS.
ohohoh, why am i saying soooo much? teeheee.
i'm happy with my life now. and i don't need him. (infact, i dnt need him at all.)
i'm better off without him. :)

Bout today..
went to meet Kian, Sean, Brandon, Joyce, Mavis, XiaoQi, Leon, Hanjie, Roger&Marcus.
Went to caught The Golden Compass again at Bishan, actually we're suppose to watch The Tattooist but the ticketseller doesn't wants to sell it to us. :( So only all of us xcept for Marcus&Roger went into the movie. The movie was great but it's kinda boring cuz' its alrdy the 2nd time i'm watching it.
My hp fell on the floor again today. Zzz, & my mirror broke. :S
Thanks Sean for helping me to fix, but it's still now working-.-
I'm sorry Esther, XiaoEn& Ashley. couldn't meet up with you guys today.
Trained back home with Brandon&Joyce.

Gonna get enough sleep at home tomorrow. :D
Byebye!

it's time to go,

2007-12-06T11:12:00.001-08:00

I caught The Golden Compass on Wed with Ashley&XiaoEn.
It's fucking AWESOME! youve gotta catch it. xe&i got crazy over the polarbear.
we took neoprint again. had a great time with them.
i'm going to watch Tattooist(maybe) ltr at Bishan.
Chalet is just next Wed! (happpppppppy). I hope it'll be fun.
Steamboat next week too. Teeheeee.

Oh, I went Alexandra hospitial today. Accompanied my g.mother for her checkup..
The appointment time is 2.05, waited till 5plus.. fuck enough right? had gastric. \:
I'm sleeping very late at night everyday.
talking on the phone with Kh, Shanran, Leon& Mavis..
and this is not goooood. lol :O
some horror advertistment just freak me out and i can't(don't dare) sleep now.
Kian showed me his 1yr old photo. Haha! It's very funny.

Obviously i'm the smallest one right? D:
I don't dare to post it on friendster... I'm afraid that people might flame me. S:
Anyway, i'm very chubby right?! xD

(SHAMELESS!i hate you most now. you wnt affect me. not a BIT.
im better off without you!!!!!)

GOODBYE!

I appreciate the love,

2007-12-04T06:45:00.000-08:00

I miss my primary schoolmates so much!
Jaslyn, Yishiun, Marcus Chew, Yusuf, Haojie.
Marcus Chew never fail to make me laugh.
I want to see them so badly. Anyw, guess i'm meeting up Jas aft she comes back from Genting.

We've broken off already. it's the time for him to move on his own life.
and i don't think we can go on anymore.

Gonna meet Ashley for movie tomorrow i think. (happy)
&oh ! Just now Kian called me, and he asked me to look down my kitchen's window. He's with Shanran, and he waved to me. Haha! It's so funny:)
I want a Converse school shoe so badly for next year! I think its really cool:D
Mom's gonna get a pair for me soon.
oh and, i still need to get afew more books from Popular :S!

(hewntwait.)

how i wish

2007-12-03T11:04:00.000-08:00

how i wish it was me, the one youre refering to ALWAYS..
i've 1 word on my face that everybody can see: regret.
okay fine. since its over now, i don't have to think so much.

Sunday.
I suggested to have ba kut teh(whtever you call that) for lunch. But it was full of people when we reach thr, so we had other food instead of that. Arggghhh.
went j8 with Mom to do her watch stuff aft that and she got her 60$ slippers! :O
then dajie drove us to Bishan.. the fishing place. stayed thr from 3-7(bored)

Monday.
Woke up at 11am, went to school and get books. Flipped through a few pages of maths.
Holy shit, didn't understand a single shit inside. Sigh, how am i going to work hard next year:/?
Went to meet Kh& Shanran at Vista, they had lunch and went to Cwp to meet Sr's goddaughter, Yz.. I saw Marcus Chew! & I misses all of them like fuck:(
Walked around and Xiaoqi&Roger came. They suggest we should take neoprint.
Okayy, delayed awhile and then Me, Xiaoqi, Yz, Marcus, Roger& Sr went in to take. I covered my face. D: Thn walked around went off around 5plus. Meet Ashley&Xiaoen at 8.. While walking to cwp, saw Brandon(: &they bought their stuff. Took neoprint(xD). IM VERY UGLY:/!!
Bought food home for Bro, he owes me 15$ include 7%GST, 10% service charge & transport fee:) cool huh?
Fred Claus on Wednesday night with Ashley. Tattooist on Friday with Kh& others.
I can't wait, sooo long since i've been to the cinema. (:D)
& I think i'm the bitch during that time. too late, i'm already a one. :/

Finally, i've told him everything thats inside of me for so long.
He would deny and stuff, but I don't care. As least everything i say is true. (:
HOHO, live on. smile, move on. no more sigh*: Ha-ha-ha ! :D

Hopefully, dad won't ask me to his company tmr. if i do, it'll be motherfucking boring.
No msn on comp, nothing cept photoshop:S! (yucks).
OFF TO BED!

our promises,

2007-12-02T10:17:00.000-08:00

i'm seeing red stuff EVERYDAY.
especially red skinnies!
i'm starting to hate red now.
i wanted to use red paint on my drawing just now. and i use orange instead of red. urgh.
crap.

oh, 2:30am now. 2dec, 2nd month?
i don't know if its still important or not...
maybe it is? i just don't know how to explain how i feel now.
i wanna say everything out too, but my mouth is not willing to open. words stuck at my throat when i was about to say it out. and its sooo sickening.
i went out with mom today, cwp first & j8. we saw Roger, Aaron& Kaihong on our way to cwp.
Chatted awhile.. mom&I thn went bk for lunch. headed off to j8 aft that.
bought a watch for mom at 20$. & i got my Zinc bag. (finally, thanksmommy♥)- thr's a guy that want my number. woah, he asked it infront of me and my mom. my mom gave that kind of "go away" face. & ofcuz, i'll nvr giv it to someone i dnt know. cab back to cwp and went to meet Roger&people.
Chatted and went off to meet Yijin, treated him bubbletea.(im good) oh thanks, for sharing so much stuff with me, makes me feel better(:.. i skipped dinner, mom didnt know, and if she finds out. she's gonna kill me.

i hope that things between me&you will get better ASAP.
and looking at ++DSWF+CDSW++FEDOIS(you dnt hav to guess/know) doesnt makes me feel okay. \:
ive so much things to say, but thrs nobody i can trust.. and all those word that stuck inside my heart makes me feel soo fedup. i can't stop my brain from thinking.

andandand, i keep on telling my mom this : I WANNA QUIT SCHOOL!!!!!!!
yes. i don't want to study, n(a) will be very very very very very tiring.
and, im getting books on monday. & it's also the time to stay at home to s.t.u.d.y till xmas.
10mredays till chalet........ fuck.

lastly...
~~happy~~ two months. (this aint a happy one)

p/s : you can call my hp already, please call me instead of msging me, cuz i won't reply unless its very impt. i dnt want my bill t burst again cuz' of smses. (:

for someone

2007-11-30T21:44:00.000-08:00

in the first place,
why'd you hide EVERYTHING from me?
if you don't love me anymore, tell me, i will understand and i will never blame you for anything.
or maybe this relationship is nothing to you at all? i don't know.
i treat this relationship so seriously just hopping that it'll last longer and prove to people that ive made the right choice and i wont regret it.
what have i done to deserve all this from you?
ive so much to talk to you& tell you everyday, but whnever i talk to you my mind went blank. i can't say a word out. it's soo difficult for me to even say hello to you.
each and every single bit of things ive done for you is really affecting the people around me.
i only can feel sorry bout it but i just cant do anything.
you might think that youre a burden to me, but from the start. i alrdy know that someday, somethings gonna happen to me, i wont blame you for this. i will neverrrr ever.
but i just want to know something.
do you love me? or, have you ever loved me?..
if you ask me that, the ans will be yes. i love you. i nvr though you'll treat me this way.
but if you ask me that now, i rly dnt know what to ans. it doesn't feel right.. just not right.
if you love me, prove it to me. i'm not your subtitude and i don't wanna be.
tired of hearing stupid explanation.
all along, i was wrong. i shouldn't have that mind of proving to people that ive made the right choice and we will last long.

i just need to know the truth,
have you ever loved me or not?.

finally found out,

2007-11-29T07:07:00.000-08:00

the truth is always cruel huh?
but its not too late for me to know that he actually falls in love with another girl.
woaaaah, sounds more & more like a .. (idk).

I went for couselling on Wed. dn't ask me why, i don't wish to mention out.
Mom seems to be another person after couselling session. sigh\:
i'm worried bout her most now. :S
bought 2tops from i.p zone; trained to msl aft that.
meet Esther& went to get our Nf shorts, Esther got green& I got red&blue.
wanted green badly but mom doesn't like it.
fell dead asleep at 11.

Went out with Esther just now. Marinasq first, we had lunch at Fin restuant,
the fish&chip is oily, therefore Esther&I peel off the skin of the fish..
She had greenlips mussels. i think its gross.(to me).
went to Sasa and was stucked there for about 30minutes?
we tried alot of nailpolish, Esther got the bloody red and a blue one.
and i got a blue & a lightpink one. the workers thr are not friendly at all!
walked ard and decided to train down to Bishan. We saw someone, i think he's very handsome but Esther keep on thinks that he's starring at her..
I bought a bag, i dnt know how do you people call that. a longlong type, glossy type and its black in colour. yeaaa. its nice. finally i can dump my stuff inside.
So we went back to cwp aft that, bought tako(s) and saw JiaNing, i think she smiled at me but i'm sorry i didnt smile back! cuz' i didnt know its you aft Esther told me. (maybe she'll see this?:/) reached home around 6plus and supper with family at 515 at 10pm plus.

oh, ive heard the news bout the dragonboat incident frm mom&esther.
i feel sad for them.. sigh :S

IVE PINK NAILS NOW! awesome.

well, this part is basically crap, you can choose not to read it.
i really dnt feel a single shit after knowing he falls in love with other girl.
really, i seriously DONT feel anything. cuz i know its NOT worth it at all!
why should i be angry/sad about it? haha, ive greatfriends supporting&helping me out.
and cheering me up whn i feel sad, -thk guys.
all along i knew he wasn't the one i can trust&love.
i regret losing afew friends cuz' of him. i think its not worth it.
yeaa, esther,kh,bro,dajie&dad is right. i can always get a better one.:D
now its all going to be over soon, yeaaa.
okay, smilesmile liming.!

i'm addicted! rly addicted to animeeees! :S
finished watching Canvas 2 like fi-na-lly.
I can't wait for moreeeeeeee!
Fuko-chan&Dango is love:D

maybe meeting esther&ashley tmr, i guess? (:/)
byee.

(youdnthavetohidethingsfrmme,nomatterhowhardyoutrytohidethings.
iwillalsofindouteverythingeasily.)

tata~

I got over you,

2007-11-26T04:31:00.000-08:00

Today ain't my day. I'm unlucky. :/
I'm motherfucking careless!!!! Shit me!
My mom happily pass me 50$ today, and i put it in my wallet and went out happily.
I DONT KNOW HOW THE FUCK THE MONEY FALL OFF FROM MY WALLET.
OHHH MY GOSH, 50$! I can buy sooo much stuff with that 50$!!! ARGH!
and now it just flew off LIKE THIS! When I reach home today and tell my mom bout this,
she shouted : WHY ARE YOU SO STUPIDDDD?! CANT EVEN KEEP MONEY PROPERLY!! (in chinese.)
Damn, I'm really stupid!! ARGH. I can't stop blamming myself man. Zzzz!

Fell asleep halfway while talking to Marcus on the phone last night, he fell asleep too D:
Woke up at 12plus.. had lunch and watched tv while waiting for him to call me..
Went out around 2plus? Walked to Alfrey's house. When we reached his house, we were standing outside the lift, and Marcus handphone dropped down to the gap inbetween the lift(LMAO.) 6th floor leyyyyy! :S They went down to get it, and booom! the screen is damage badly! Poor handphone-.-"
slacked there and Marcus did his tattoo touch-up stuff or whatever shit.
HE kept snatching away my Ez-link card, and my face is sooo fking ugly! -.- Brandon, Shanran, KianHui & GuanYi came after that. Left Alfrey's house around 6plus. D:

I'm going to walkkkk around with Esther on Thurs, and we're getting NF shorts:D
YAYYY! NF SHORTS, HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!
I want Steamboat ley!~-.-
& IVE TO GO FOR COUSELLING ON WED. FUCKKKKKK :S.

Whatever it is, life is noooot fun anymore! :/
cuz' i've no cash left.......... *cries*

edited/
i'm addicted watching anime...... shietttttt:(!

I'm not afraid to cry,

2007-11-25T08:03:00.000-08:00

I wanted to blog happily,
i can't now. i don't have the mood to blog.

Friday, woke up around 7plus and Dad drove us(mom,kor&i) to somewhere around Redhill.
for kor's army checkup stuff, waited all the way till12plus. thn cab down to Taka, walked around and kor bought a veryveryvery nice branded top. 85$, i bought a veryvery nice branded tee at 65$. walked around and wanted t walk to fareast, we walked the wrong way.. so we decided to train down to Bishan, walked around there and saw a Zinc bagpack, like it alot. gonna get it on Monday.
Dajie thn came and meet us, she drove us to Pasir Ris, to check out the price for the chalet stuff. we wanted to book but it's already full, we went to East Coast then, booked the double floor's room. 3d2n on 12,13,14dec.
went to somewhere and ate the very popular Chicken chop, FATS AH! but can't resist..... :S went to Bishan to look for Dad, prawnfishing fr 2hours. drank a can of Carlsberg and my face turned red. very red, lol. Joked with old uncles there, they're nice.
reached home around 9plus, chatted with Marcus from 1+ till 3.30.

Saturday, woke up around 2 going 3plus. totally forgotten about the movie, forget it, my bad. Sorry Marcus. i rotted at home the whole day, went down to vista around 5plus to have dinner, 11plus for supper.. saw Gary Aw and some ahbeng kept staring at me. whatever?\:

seriously, i hate liars(include myself).
i mean like, who don't hate liars? i must admit i'm a liar too. so i hate myself.
but why must it be the one i love the most lie to me something which is not-so-nice?
i don't like you talking to her, i really hate it. doesn't mean i never call you means you can talk to her right, you can choose to do other stuff what. i think it's really unfair.
i can't talk to my friends, and you can. everything become my fault, but i don't think i'm the one to blame. it's not fully my fault. or maybe i'm just complaining much.
i hope when im talking to you, she's not in the line. if she is, i'm gonna go crazy.
don't know whr the fk will i be going tomorrow. my mood totally sucks now.
thanks yijin, fr you and your shoulder, but i'm okay.

I wonder

2007-11-23T12:05:00.000-08:00

I hope I'm doing the right thing.. :S
and things aren't going quite well.
i think i'm causing more&more problem.
it's all my fault, i shouldn't ask so much at first...
this rly made me suffer alot. sighhhhh!.
i'm sorry to lie to you, but i rly have to do this for the sake of me &you.

Sister came & talk to me just now..
seems like i'm being hated, so much.

4am now, gotta get some sleep. need to wake up VERY early tomorrow.. 7 i guess?
Movie tomorrow with Marcus&people? I don't know.

k bye. post later if possible.

(plsletmerest,imsickandtiredofitalready.)

You make me feel out of my element,

2007-11-21T15:16:00.000-08:00

I fell asleep last night while waiting for Brother to let me use the comp.
-__-

Anyway, yesterday was kinda great(i guess).
nobody back out last minute, Shirley came too.
so.. woke up around 11plus and went out to meet Jacky&Alvin.. Passed Jacky the money and went to RC to look for Marcus. sat there till 3plus? walked over to cwp to meet the rest and took bus to kimmy's place. Thn Alvin, Jacky, JY& I went to the Shengsong to buy charcoal, ice, drinks& etcetc. went back to the bbq pit and started to crap with Alvin& Jacky.. we didn't helped out much, after that we started eating. LiuJie is bad, i gave him some food&drinks when he's sitting alone and he didn't even bother to eat it! but he still ate afterall:)
there's was some clown-type music that freak me and lw out. so Jacky, Alvin, Lw&I went to look around to see whr th music come from, it was damn creepy:/
Was raining heavily around 9+? we played in the rain and the waterbomb fight was damn funny. I threw on Jacky's back, he threw me back and missed, Alvin thought I throw the bomb at him. he throw back at me. ON MY BUTT! and it rly hurts like fk-.-
After that, everyone started to leave, 3 of us(alvin&jacky) wanted to walk over to Fragant, but it's raining, so we went fuchun CC, went into the boys toilet... LOL.
then i walked home in the rain alone. thr's a bangala looking at me for a long time........
i swear i almost cried. but i didn't afterall, reached home around 10:30.. bathe and was feeling damn cold. argue with my mom and i slammed the door. lol. was smsing with Marcus halfway and I fell asleep.. Mom took my handphone away again. like what the fuckkkkk!
shouldn't have fall asleep-.-

I rly rly rly rly rly rly hate this.
the way you look at her, the way you talks to her, the way you worried bout her, the way you scold her, the way you tease her, the way you disturb her.
I JUST HATE ITTTTTT. argh. why cant you spare a thought for me............
I feel like I'm the extra one. or maybe I am just the extra one\:

To my dearest Sister,

2007-11-20T00:46:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU DEAREST KIMMY SISTER!
Stay cute! Our sistership will never ever end:D
Love you! & Seeya later on! x3

Trust me okay, people!

Please cancel away the third one.. I don't want anything to happen.
I feel very innocent.. \:

2007-11-19T08:10:00.000-08:00

Happybirthday to my dearest Boyfriend!♥ :D
ILOVEYOU♥! Muahhhhzxxzxssxzxszxzxs.
Aha, see ya later!
loves:D

-edited-

BACK! Enjoyed 45% of today. :/
Slept at 1am+ yesterday night.
Woke up around 8am+? Wen 515 with Bro to have breadfast. He sent me to Vista and he head off to work. Then went to sit under my block & took cab down to Marcus house.
Reached there, was talking to Kimmy. Thn Kian& Jianing came, we walked to Cwp. Meet the rest and saw Elgene, ChiMeng, YiCheng&WeiXiang:). Thn took train down to DG. Walked around and watch them race car(bored). Then Celina&I went over to see Kian&Hensel play machine game(fighting stuff?\:). Laughed alot and then trained back to Woodlands around 5.10.. Reached Woodlands late and I rushed back home to meet my Cousins.
Saw my aunt&Mom while walking back home, they told me Cousin had already went home, so aunt drive us to Vista, saw Marcus. Lol! Then had dinner at Vista, walked home..

BBQ tomorrow!! I can't wait anymore! *smile* Hope Alvin go tomorrow.... :(
No him no fun sial. Hah :S
Enjoyed my day a little though. Thanks YiJin for making me smile.

Once again,happybirthday my dear! iloveyouuuuu x1000000:D
hope you enjoyed your dayyyyy. and the monkey! teeeheeee! loves.
Blog tomorrow! Byebyebyebyebye(:

Shopping!

2007-11-17T03:51:00.000-08:00

My day was great.
Thanks to YiJin & Melisa (:
Woke up at 10am+ and came online.
Chatted with YiJin& Melisa, then decided to meet out with YiJin.
Long time since I've met out with him, finally i've got a chance to see him. Went Cwp to meet up melisa and we walked around while waiting for yijin. thn I bought something nice for Marcus's birtday. A monkey! it's really a cute one. melisa thinks that toooo!
yijin reached around 2:30?
trained to Bugis and went Bugis street to get my stuff. Cuz' I dnt want yijin to wait:). bought a redcardigan& a littlemissbad tee. melisa bought littlemisssunshine.
thn trained back to woodlands, was sms-ing with yijin on the train. he seriously rocks a million time! smile yijin! :D
thn yijin went off to 521 to look for his friend. melisa&i walked around and i walked back home.

bad news bad news! i lost my voice. fk man. (:S)
i'm going to hang out with yijin more alreadyyyyy! hehhh:D
mom, dad&bro, i love you:).

suddenly i can sense that something bad is gonna happen.. hope nothing will happen then.
yeaa, God bless.
and i hope that Tuesday will be a wellplanned and a great day.
pict will be uploaded whn my fking phone is willing to connect itself to my laptop. (:

Sick!

2007-11-16T10:18:00.000-08:00

Argh, i'm sick for 2days already.
Fucking sore throat! can't even say a single word on that day(forgotten when).
Now i'm coughing like shit!!
I don't dare to go out cuz' i look soooooo like a ghost now.
Caught The Game Plan with Mom just now, not really that nice.\:
I'm going out with Melisa on Friday! (to Bugis?) i think:S
I wanna get my cardigan! i want a black one now! (hope mom give me $ on that day)
& the top i bought from Bugis 2weeks ago, the button fell off! and i don't even know how to sew it back! I only wore it for once! argh.
Gotta go and look for his birthday gift. and and and, if I've the time, I'm gonna do a birthday card! all by myself! i did the previous birthday card 1year ago for mom. my hands are a little rusty now. hopefully, i can do a good and nice one.
i'm going Malaysia next month.. Mom pulled me along!!
I want to follow my Dad to Hongkong with his side cousins! WALAUUUUU:((((((
Dad says he'll try to persuade mom. shittttttttt this man. i miss my cousins lots:/
it's very late now. need to get enough sleep so that i can look at least like a human.
its just 4more days and i cant wait for our bbq!

2007-11-14T06:25:00.000-08:00

I HATE MY FAMILY.
to the max!!

What kind of Family is this? You all said you'll help me&be there for me when I need help&you all.
NOW?
fuck, it's all lies.
I'm not going to trust you all anymore.

& now i'm helpless and i dont know who to go to.....! argh! :(((((((

2007-11-13T21:29:00.000-08:00

winks;)!
Marcus passed me his Panda. (above)
He told me to take care of it.
You must take care of it also luh. :)

It's 1:15am now, I can't sleep.
I must sleep early and wake early to wait for his call tomorrow!
(I'll try to force myself to sleep).
-Nothing will happen. - This sentence have been appearing in my mind since this morning.
Yep, true. Nothing will happen definately.
I Love Marcus. (:

1 More Day - Cycling & Skating with Esther, Ashley & Faddy.
4 More Days - His Birthday!(:
6 More Days - BBQ.

2007-11-12T04:58:00.000-08:00

I'm talking to Kimmy&JY on the phone now.
Everything is sooo complicated man! :/

I went fishing with my family yesterday. And we did have a fun time afterall.
Reached home around 7+? Slept around 1+. Started to think about crap. Felt really scared. Lol.
Woke up around 10plus today; sms-ed Marcus and meet him at Cavana.
Trained to Bugis with Marcus, Kianhui, Sean&Grace.
Walked around with Grace and she bought a dress, very nice dress.
After that, Marcus& I trained back to Woodlands. He left after that.
Went in the wrong train. & I got off at Yishun. Trained to Jurong East alone. Went to meet up with Cousins and went to Grandmother's house. Slept there for 30minutes.
Dad drive us to 515&had dinner.

I've no appetite this few days, I don't know why and whats wrong with me:/

{whats wrong againnnnn......?sigh,you kept hiding things from me.i rly wna know wht happen..}

2007-11-10T06:15:00.000-08:00

i'm back.
hohoooo.

10more days; bbq everybody!(evil.laughs)
hope everything will be well-planned. & of cuz', everyone will turn up! Esp. Jacky,
hah:)
I went shopping with Esther&Ashley at Bugis on last Wednesday.
(something unpleasant happened)
Umm, manage to buy a top@ 20$, it's very nice anyway.
Esther went back home halfway. Ashley& I went to J8. Had Swensen for dinner.
Had a great laugh with her.
I went fishing with my family on last Thursday(8Nov).
A great time with them though it's boring.
& I went Bugis today with Mom, Bro, WG, WG's gf& Jacky.
Last minute ask Jacky out. Walked around and bought nothing.
Bro& WG went to sing K, left me, my Mom & Jacky.
We went to CWP to had dinner and went home after that.
Bro&I are addicted to Pushpop! I know it sounds lame:/
But it's nice(:

this blogskin sucks big time. lol. a tempo one i guess. (i'm lazy.)
booking chalet& fishing tmr again(bored). Jacky is coming along with me..
Bye!
(whts the prob with u? sigh:/)

mymomissofreakingselfish.